When I moved to Apartment 12 in September I had big plans to do a lot of paint projects that were 'saved' for the winter months. To keep me busy. To give me something to do. Or whatever. My first totally free week was, to say the least, the most aimless week I've had in a long, long time.
It was a cold snowy month and I spent a lot of time snuggling, coming up long enough to do the necessary everyday things. I did do a five-day trip to South Carolina escorting the escort-er for a utility shed delivery. The beach was beautiful but it was cold there as well. So I did the same thing there...snugged in my bed with a glorious view of the beach, surfacing long enough to occasionally watch the world pass by six floors up. Before I knew it, January was over. And my projects still in the wings waiting to be done.
February came and it was still cold - record-breaking cold and lots of snow. We had a major ice storm and were without electricity for three days. Thankfully, Wayne had gotten a generator that kept us warm and had 'net service. And all through the month of February I felt stuck in one place. I wasn't depressed...just stalled and couldn't understand why. Then it dawned on me this was another stage of grief, a stage I did not expect. I felt a little blind-sided by it and just simply waited it out. In the end, I finally was able to put it into words to one of my mentors. It felt like I was sitting in a waiting room full of people where everyone knew where they were going but me. I still don't know but am content to rest, believing God will show me.
And the projects are still waiting in the wings to be done.
On the lighter side...one of the goats had twin babies. The children were SO excited - well, we all were! They are the cutest little things - about the size of poodles and growing fast. The children wanted me to name one of them so I named the male Tommy and they name the other Lily. Tommy and Lily...such a nice ring to that, dontcha' think?
On the disappointing side I found out why my posts go into icons - there's a missing link in the pictures somewhere. I was/am almost ready to forget about this blog thing and time-consuming process. I figured Word Press is the way to go but honestly, I don't feel they have much to offer at this point. Even my lovely header reverted back to their picture (sigh!). 'Course, I could just write rambling stuff like this but half the fun in blogs are pictures. And all the post pics need to be done over (big sigh!)...it's enough to make a grown woman weep!
~ Esther
