Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Apartment 12: A New Blog In A New Place


A bend in the road...

One of the constants of life is change.  Some changes are easy; some changes are very hard. Many times, change comes like a thief in the night, stealing the comfortable life we lived and force us into another direction. And life begins on a new page and in a different place.

In actuality, my 'bend in the road' is more than that...it's a total transformation of life as I knew it. I am a widow since mid-summer. Our home is dismantled and I live in a different place. A collection of old and chipped but pretty dishes, my fetish for mirrors of all kinds and sizes, the little trinkets that were so fun to collect over the years are sold. But the things that really count are still mine. No person, place or thing can ever take my memories or who I am away!

Apartment 12 blog is birthed out of a desire to share my life in my new home. Several years ago our youngest daughter and family planned to build a new house. In their plans they designed the basement as an in-law quarters 'when it was needed.' This need came much sooner then we expected after my honey was diagnosed with colon cancer the second time. I quickly named my new home Apartment 12 - apartment sounds much homier than basement and 12 is the house number. Sounds simple and sensible to me!

Apartment 12 is roomy and perfect for one person. It's in the boonies, a.k.a. - 'a backwoods area' Webster says. It's quiet all the time except when the dog barks, or the chickens cackle, or the goats m-a--a--a. I can see LOTS of stars at night and the moon? Beyond glorious! Do I miss Fleur Cottage, the 'dawdy haus' (grandparent home) where my Honey and I lived for nine short years? Fleur Cottage will ALWAYS be special in my heart but life has changed and now I'm here at this place for this time. It's easy to stay stuck in the past or yearn for the 'old life' so much so we become useless for the present and that is not a place I want to be.

I've lived here now for a little over two months and as all adjustments go, there are pros and cons.  I am surrounded by Amish farms instead of traffic and shops. It takes anywhere from seven to thirty minutes or more to go anywhere instead of three to twenty minutes. At Fleur Cottage, there was little privacy stepping outside the front door; at Apartment 12, one can do most anything with all the privacy one desires. Life is a bit slower here for me, something I needed after our journey of the past several years. I miss my family that is thirty minutes away but my time is my own and I can easily hop into my car to see them. I've learned that one can adjust to most anything and I want to accept the 'bends in the road' with grace.

~Esther

11 comments:

  1. You are so special. Praying for you as you continue down the new and unknown path you are now on. Life is so hard but you do it so well. Thank you for the inspiration and example you are in the midst of your pain. Hugs! ~ Elaine

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  2. A new "canvas" and I'm excited to see how you will "paint" it. Best wishes, friend!

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  3. May God continue to be your guide on your journey.I love the title of your new blog!I also especially like the quote about being stuck in the past making us useless for the present.Wise words,my friend!

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  4. Joy and pain, so opposite, yet so inexplicably entwined. May the God of all comfort be that for you again today! Love you, R

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  5. Change has always been difficult for me but you seem to accept it with grace and even embrace it. You inspire me! Blessings!

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  6. Esther, you're one brave, sweet lady! I cannot imagine accepting such drastic changes with such grace as you've displayed. It's a challenge to me to let go of 'things' a little more. God bless you in your new little apartment and the new life you're carving out for yourself. ~Rachel

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  7. I really do not know you but just loved Fluer Cottage-the name, the neat ideas you posted, etc. May God grant you pleasant days and memories and your attitude will go a loooog way in adjustments. One question-Why not name your apt. Fleur Forever or something with Fleur in it-its so very unique?!

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  8. and I've yet to come look you up, neighbor!! God be near you in your adjusting!!

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  9. Esther, God is giving you so much in the midst of the changes & grief! It is beautiful, encouraging & a blessing. May Jesus continue to pour His grace, comfort & the awareness of His presence into your heart.

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  10. You are so challenging and beautiful in the way you walk forward into life's changes - some of the most difficult anyone could know. I loved following the Fleur Cottage, and I will look forward to following you here as well! xo

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  11. Thanks, Clarita...I so enjoy reading yours too and sometimes 'envy' you your artistic bent! :)

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